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| Nobody told me that once I went to college everything would start rushing past me and never slow down. I'm in such a whirl and can't seem to find any time to quiet my spirit. It's so hard to force myself to just be still. I desire it so much, but it's like my life won't let me. It's gotten so hard to even think. My mind is rushing in a million different directions and is driving me insane. I try to do things one way and figure out how I work best in certain circumstances, but I end up disappointing myself because I'm making myself believe that I don't know myself as well as I thought. I'm just confusing myself.
I stuck in Ginny Owens to do the dishes to and found more than I was expecting. She seems to have a knack for saying exactly what people need to hear. She is so real with her lyrics. I need a good reminder every once in a while to "Run to You" for all my truth and not try to analyze myself or my actions. I'm a fallen being who will constantly fail my own standards of perfection.
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I used to see the world in black and white
Now I find myself lost in a fog of grey
I thought the good guys always won the fight
But I've learned life simply doesn't work that way
I once believed if I loved others they would love me, too
But I've seen this isn't always so
I thought that inner peace would come from trusting who I am,
But it's really about trusting who I know
chorus: So when the winds of change try to blow me over,
And the shadows of confusion hide the truth
I will hope in the One who is forever,
I will run to you
I will run to you
Ever since the moment life began
Humankind has tried to solve it's mysteries
So many things we cannot comprehend
So we draw conclusions that we can believe
Well, I know that your hands have placed the Earth upon the seas
And pitched a tent in the Heavens for the sun
The Author of the universe is the Father who loves me
So only one conlusion can be drawn
chorus
When I face the questions that seem to have no answers
And I know my friends are but a precious few
I will hope in the Love that never changes
I will run to you
Though the perils of life seem so great
And hope seems so frail
You never fail, no
Shadows may not disappear
But You've always made it clear
Truth will prevail
You will prevail
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| When the perishable has been clothed with the imperishable, and the
mortal with immortality, then the saying that is written will come
true: "Death has been swallowed up in victory."
"Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?"
The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks
be to God! He give us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always
give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that
your labor in the Lord is not in vain.
(1 Corinthians 15:54-58)
Rest in peace Dante Giachetti (1985-2006) and may those who are still here continue to stand firm.
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| Once again, I'm being bantered to update this thing. I really stink at
this whole journaling thing. Whenever I have something to write about,
I'm enjoying it too much to leave it so I can write about it. But then
if I put it off I forget about it and it never gets written about.
Anyway... so a few people want to know what happened over break. Well I
went to Nate's for about a week. We had a ton of fun there. I got to
meet a lot of people from his hometown and see where he grew up and all
that jazz. We hung out with some of his friends, but mainly hung out
with his family. I wasn't really feeling all that good while I was
there, but I lived through it enough to enjoy my time. We mostly just
lounged around the house and watched movies. O and they made me play
piano a ton. I've never had anyone just sit there to listen to me play
before. Normally I'm always being yelled at to "shut off that racket."
So it was kinda weird to have people besides a teacher watching me, but
kinda nice too.
Then I had to go home to the craziness of my parents trying to get the
house ready for my brother Jeremy coming home from Iraq. My mom had me
cleaning at all hours unless I was actually at my work. Nate said that
his sister thought I was a clean freak because anytime she talked to me
on the phone I was always cleaning. O and speaking of work ...
apparently they fired me during the review period so I wouldn't get a
raise this year and then rehired me for spring break. It's absolutely
ridiculous! O and then I had some interesting stalker happenings as
well. That was so much fun that I wanted to lock myself in my room and
never leave it ever again. So then my brother came home on Friday and
completely took over my room. I had nowhere to go to avoid their
teasing. It was like my only place of escape and I wasn't allowed in
there  .
Then I'm told that he's taking his laptop away from me (the one I've
been using the entire time at school). So I have two weeks now to find
another one for my family to somehow buy me.
On the brighter side ... I got into some more classes that I need for
next semester. I had a job offer for some really boring job, but it
pays $13 an hour! Nate spent all of yesterday with my family to
celebrate my mom's bday. And I went to CPO today and found out that I
got all A's on my midterms! So that was my spring break. Yay.
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| Does anyone love our floor as much as I do? Last night was incredible!
We had a sleepover at Sarah's house with half of our floor. It was
amazing that we could get that many of us to come in the first place,
but the time we had was priceless. We started the night off by getting
the grand tour of Sarah's newly renovated house. The entire home was
gorgeous. I could so live there the rest of my life. The add-on for the
kitchen opened the house up so nicely that no matter how big the other
rooms were, the house seemed huge. Everything was either brick or wood,
and the animal decor made me feel like I was in the woods.
Then we chilled for a while with food until someone noticed how quiet
it was. So we turned on music and randomly broke out into a dance
circle. Everyone had a chance to show their stuff off. I don't think
any of us will be able to look at Caroline the same way. Naomi was
heating up the dance floor, we got Maria to groove, and Esther was
showing off her hot moves as well. And then of course the rest of us
were just having fun looking stupid. We all tried a line dance, the
moonwalk, some cheer style dancing, waltzes, and just good ol' hip hop.
The dancing was quite amazing and happened at the most random moments
throughout the night.
We also had a spur of the moment praise and worship session with
Esther, Shannon, Sarah's sister Abby, and me playing piano. From that
we moved to a spur of the moment prayer session. How awesome it is that
we can pause from whatever it is that we're doing to lift up the needs
of those on our floor. The entire night was such an encouragement to me
and I know I wasn't the only one encouraged by it. Thank you Lord for
placing us all together on the wonderful floor of Smith 5.
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Man,
I tried to tag Megan, but she had been tagged, and now I'm tagging you,
but you've already been tagged too. Who in the world hasn't done this
retarded thing?!!!! ~ Katie Dykstra
These were posted on my site about two weeks ago. I have done my best
to avoid them, but I've finally cracked and decided to post some random
things up to make you all happy.
1) After eating certain candy such as starburst, nestle treasures, or
sticks of gum, I re-wrap them so it looks like the candy is still in
the wrapper.
2) I have an unnatural obsession with trivia games and game shows. We
just got this new one for Christmas called SceneIT? It's a movie trivia
game and one of the types of questions has a Wheel of Fortune type
format. Needless to say, I dominate in that area. I actually figured
out one of the movie titles without any letters up on the screen. Talk
about weird.
3) I play piano entirely by sight reading. I used to practice for hours
a day to perfect certain songs, but within the past few years, if I
can't play something right in the first attempt, I leave the piano only
to come back an hour or so later to try sight reading it all over
again.
4) I will sing in front of huge crowds and have no problem, but I won't sing a single note in front of a family member.
5) I eat my food sequencially. Starting with what will get soggy, then
moving in a circle among the rest of the food, and finishing with my
drink. And I will never mix the majority of my food either.
I tag Aaron, Ben, Emily, Lindsay, and Jason. (sorry guys, I don't have anyone else that hasn't been tagged already.)
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